If you can, try to get in and see an endocrinologist. They specialize in hormones and their effects on the body.
I saw one with my partner for her specific issues and it’s made a big difference in quality of care. For one, the endo actually listens to her and works with us to find the problem. Experiences may differ but a specialist is the right path, if you’re able to see one. Hope you get a chance to - it took us months to get an appointment with one near us, but it’s been worth it so far.
Mass shooters would have to admit that they’re being pulled around by the balls like Nikki by their addiction. Not heroin like Nikki necessarily, but hate. Hate is addictive and it’s just as useful as heroin for getting junkies to jump whenever they’re told “frog” by TV/their handlers. Cheaper too.
Not gonna lie, I’d be horrified if someone used Operation Mindcrime as their personal manifesto. Then I’d probably stop listening to that album, and that would suck, because it’s a non stop banger.