Is “The Hill” going to be labelled as a Russian asset now? The article does indeed contain a shocking amount of truth, and completely contradicts the western narrative for the last 3 years.

I feel the same way about Disney “classics”. But I’m not an editor for a major newspaper writing about it like a frickin conspiracy.

Yeah. It really is. I still have my doubts about whether I’m trans or not. They’re fading, but still there. But again, it was a shift in perspective that made me go through with it. Even if the hormones didn’t do anything at my age, I would still get some curves in the right places. I would still be happy with that, even if not the dramatic change I wanted. Worst case scenario sounded pretty good to me (totally cis thoughts, right?). If the best case happened, I would figure out what to do then.

It turns out I wasn’t too old, and jumped at the chance to switch completely as soon as I could. And what do you know? The dysphoria is gone now, and I don’t miss my old life. I’m starting to really believe that I might not be cis. And I think my 60 year old self is going to be proud of me.

What made me do it was a change of perspective. I was really kind of mad that my 20 year old self didn’t do it. I thought I was too old at that point. But then I followed that logic, and my 60 year old self would likely be just as angry at me for not doing it. I was never going to stop feeling this way. I couldn’t change the past, but I could change the future. There would never be a good time to do it. I may as well get it done today.

As it turned out, it was the perfect time for me to do it. The pandemic lockdown made the early years so much easier. But I didn’t know that was coming.

In my case, I called the LGBT hotline at a local LGBT clinic and asked them how I got started on it. (Well, actually I didn’t come right out and say it. I just awkwardly said I didn’t know what I was doing. but the person on the phone clued in when I got excited she mentioned informed consent). She directed me to call a specific doctor who only dealt with trans issues, and told me that people would know what I wanted just by booking the appointment with her.

I booked the appointment, and somehow managed to get HRT without ever saying the word trans, or even really admitting to it. It was one of the scariest days of my life. But also one of the best.

I haven’t had surgery. But I’ve been on HRT for 5 years, and have fully transitioned. I live in a fairly socially progressive place, my family does not. My family ranges from bigots to allies, but tends to lean towards bigot. My own results were losing about half of my family, but not a single friend. You can pick your friends, but not your family. I chose great friends.

I’m glad I did it. When I made my final decision, I was prepared to lose it all. My job, my family, my friends. It meant that much to me. That said, I didn’t have to deal with legal problems, outside of obstructing officials. So I wasn’t afraid of being legally punished.

So my advice to you is to not worry about what other people think. You can’t control that, and it’s minor compared to your legal problems. If they really loved you, they would understand. But the legal problems only really have one real solution. Move. Get out of there any way you can.

The only alternative is to find loopholes in your laws. If you live in a larger city, there’s sure to be underground queer movements somewhere. Find them, ask them for help.

Edit: Also, now that I’ve had my caffeine, I also want to add a couple of things.

1. Things don’t change unless people are exposed to new things by the people close to them. It’s easy to make oppressive laws when it’s conceived as something scary and foreign. Internal pressure is needed to change the status quo. Obviously it won’t do anyone much good if they execute you, but even if you came out outside of the country, that still challenges the status quo. There’s no need to be a martyr.

2. My mom was a lifelong homophobe. What changed her mind about gay people was that one of the elders on my reserve came out as gay. She’d known him for decades, and the reality was suddenly thrust upon her that queer people are normal people and not so scary as she thought. You might be surprised.

American exceptionalism in a nutshell.

I’m not watching a 20 minute YouTube video. But I did a quick search, and I’m guessing it’s about Box64, which does static recompilation. I’m still going to say that it’s not going to be perfect or even good enough in many cases (and their website indicates as much). You can’t always directly translate what happens on one CPU to another. Neon/SSE for example. You can do some translation, but some things will need emulating in software, and that’s going to be slow. Even memory access is different. I’m sure any programmer who’s tried writing a lockless queue is going to know that what works on x86 probably doesn’t work on ARM without a lot of futzing with memory barriers and atomic flags. It’s hard. And it’s hard because in order to be fast, it has to be the right code for the job. If you just slap a memory barrier after every instruction, it’ll run correctly, but too slow to matter.

This is why emulators exist, and continue to exist.

It’s working fine here on Firefox mobile.

Here’s an article about it. The clip seems to be DMCA-ed all to hell by Paramount, but the quote I was referring to is quoted in the article.

I’m a bit out of the loop in the emulation scene. But the last time I was really involved, dynarec proved trickier than expected. I have my doubts that it’s that it’s working well enough to recompile an entire game without a whole lot of hand holding.

One day I really hope to make your dream a reality. There’s just never enough time in a day.

Ah, thanks for the clarification! I get the new ones mixed up all the time.

Fair enough. I know enough of the history to recognise that the details were a bit off. But it was close enough to the truth I didn’t think it was worth quibbling about.

I lost family to the American Holocaust.

Yes, but the software has to be compiled for your architecture, or you have to emulate it. That’s fine for new games that want to market in China, but emulating every other game is going to get old really fast. Hell, I have an x86 Chromebook that I’m strongly considering dual booting Linux.

Still x86.

Nothing in that disclaims the meme. It’s actually worse.

“At the federal level, there really was no reason to pay soldiers bounties for killing Indians. That was their job.”

No, that’s different. Big country invaded little country to defend little country.

Yep. But PC video games are all x86. And I do like to escape.