Hi friend. I know it seems hard right now but try to put yourself out there as much as you can, you’ll thank yourself for it later. Do whatever you can to push through the anxiety and muster up the strength to talk to people and be social, in whatever way is available. You aren’t annoying, you aren’t desperate, you’re just new and how you’re feeling is completely understandable. The decent people know and understand that and there are loads of them. Good luck.