I have pretty much given up on being social at all any more because of how much I seem to resist it, even though I WANT to go out and do things and make more friends and be consistent. But it’s just so exhausting, I dissociate when I’m out and about unless I’m drunk, I get super anxious about what to talk about, etc etc. I’ve been going to punk and metal shows for like 20+ years but now I pretty much have resigned myself to the fact that I just am not gonna go anymore because I just disappoint myself again and again after I tell myself I wanna go, but then when it comes down to it I figure out a way to just avoid it. And that makes me sad.
I’m AuDHD, and currently exploring meds. Has anyone noticed an impoved ability to socialize/go out in public when medicated?
That’s encouraging. I think fatigue/exhaustion are a HUGE part of my experience. I also get overstimulated so it’s like a vicious cycle and feels herculean to get through social events (without drinking). It would be nice to be more friendly lol, I find myself really aloof and terse because I’m so anxious when I go out