idk I just wanted to talk to some uhhhhh systeming folks mhm yes yes the uh diversity of the experience of identity, self, perception and more! :) shy

I can go first, shit is whack, holy hell!

idk it still does not feel real and idk how long before it will finally settle in? maybe it is something I have to swim upstream against like a salmon to feel real about? maybe that does not matter?

also it is sad I feel like I need to conform to a certain standard or way of plurality to be valid smh where is the appreciation for diversity of experiences and minds-- the former statement to myself.

maybe I will post some system art!!! (i want to share art I make so badly) :) YIPPEEE!

yes maybe I am too online or maybe I just like talking to nice people that may have similar values who may “get it”

meow creature

  • Gaia [She/Her]
    link
    fedilink
    English
    arrow-up
    4
    ·
    5 months ago

    I…struggle with myself. We like each other but there is so much self hatred that we have to be careful not to accidentally denigrate each other or suppress the other. She’s a protector and because of that it can be hard to even get her to come out except in stressful situations where I black out entirely and she take over. She’s so much more vengeful than I so it’s a constant battle to not push people away in those situations, even if they want to help. Regardless, we are very thankful for each other. Makes life a lot less lonely.

    • starry_soda [comrade/them]@hexbear.netOP
      link
      fedilink
      English
      arrow-up
      2
      ·
      5 months ago

      (sends virtual hugs!) :)))

      the denigration and suppression is real… I have done that on purpose for years and it has definitely done a lot more harm than good hahahah

      though I myself have never experienced a black out… all experiences are fascinating aren’t they?

      I am glad for the less lonely aspect! I should talk to my headmates more but… after so long of deliberate separation and such, I guess I will try to be less of an ass to everyone in the brain central haha

      • Gaia [She/Her]
        link
        fedilink
        English
        arrow-up
        2
        ·
        edit-2
        5 months ago

        Our experiences are fascinating yes lol, but I’d prefer to not emotionally traumatize my love ones to the point they even forget being traumatized 😭

        It takes a lot of work but being nicer to yourselves is totally worth

        Also thank you for the virtual hugs I invested them and I’ll send you the profits

    • starry_soda [comrade/them]@hexbear.netOP
      link
      fedilink
      English
      arrow-up
      4
      ·
      5 months ago

      multiple people/consciousness in the same brain, is the crudest and simplest way for me to put it, also a spectrum (like everything else about people!) :))

    • Juice [none/use name]@hexbear.net
      link
      fedilink
      English
      arrow-up
      3
      ·
      5 months ago

      I think they are using sort of coded language to see if there is anyone here who has similar struggles. Like if you identified as a member of a small minority (maybe you do, idk) but you didn’t know anyone like you who was also a socialist, and you typically meet up with other people like you online but don’t want to give it away in a public forum because of stigma

      • starry_soda [comrade/them]@hexbear.netOP
        link
        fedilink
        English
        arrow-up
        4
        ·
        5 months ago

        okay juice i started screaming and laughing /pos, it is not a coded word (or maybe it is?) I wish i am that cool :)) plurality and system is quite public words (to my knowledge) but plurality is the “less medicalized” term out of the two, you might be more familiar with the terms DID system, OSDD system, etc etc, tho I am really uncomfortable with DID + OSDD labels so I opted a not mmm psychiatric centered language! if that makes sense? (hopefully )

        • Juice [none/use name]@hexbear.net
          link
          fedilink
          English
          arrow-up
          3
          ·
          5 months ago

          Yeah I’m familiar with DID, and I came across some of the other terms in a thread about DID…I just didn’t want to out you if you were trying to be a obscurative. I know there’s a lot of misunderstanding around it, just trying to be sensitive. Just because something’s medical doesn’t mean its accepted and I see you’re a newer an so might still be trying to get the lay of the land

          So if you don’t mind, some of these terms are kinda obvious, but what is “system” or “systeming”?

  • hexaglycogen [he/him, they/them]@hexbear.net
    link
    fedilink
    English
    arrow-up
    4
    ·
    5 months ago

    I am not a system but one time someone asked if I was a system because I had the addendum “68 Center Host” on my discord user name, because I was hosting the center area of a game with 68 participants.

    I am not quite exciting enough to have 67 other people living in my head, but rat-salute to the comrades who do, and I hope that they can find joy in their very unique experiences.

    • WithoutFurtherBelay@hexbear.net
      link
      fedilink
      English
      arrow-up
      7
      ·
      5 months ago

      The most simplified definition of the term plural that includes all people who take the label is “someone who shares the same physical body with other individuals.” Such a group is sometimes referred to as a system, though many plural groups use different terminology. Because plurality can take many vastly different forms, it is difficult to expand this definition without excluding someone who might otherwise share characteristics or concerns with most other members of the community. It does seem this basic trait is the only thing groups of people who refer to themselves as plural universally share. In other words, there are many, many ways to be plural, and no two systems are the same even as far as basic characteristics. There are a lot of trends in the community, however, and various types within the umbrella term of plural that seem to be subsets.

    • starry_soda [comrade/them]@hexbear.netOP
      link
      fedilink
      English
      arrow-up
      3
      ·
      5 months ago

      oh that is so cool and interesting… I wanna know more about you/yall’s experiences now (wiggles happily)

      I mean-- i think in the biggest sense I just wanted to hear people’s experiences with identity, consciousness, and such! ik some ppl who became a system later in life due to stress, and such, sorry ughhhh i am so bad with words, but yeah labels are just that, :]]] (smiley face)

      perception and existence is weird, also fun :)