people are saying such shitty things about me. ill probably delete this, but can some of my comrades just give me a pep talk if your up to in. I know logically I love this place and this is a bad day, but I cant stop crying, i do so much work going out, doing mutual aid, supporting union drives, working with the dsa and psl ect and it doesn’t fucking matter because as soon as I vent about the class of people who are giving me a hard time IM somehow stopping racial solidarity from happening. it hurts so bad and makes everything feel so pointless. i feel so disposable. im not gonna debate anyone i just want to chat with nice comrades who care. im actually crying hard over internet shit maybe its my sign to leave.

edit: THANK YOU for the out pouring of love comrade, here, in my dms, and on cytube. I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH. I will be staying. I will be taking a break after this sundays fanon post (its the last one and BEST chapter hope i can see you there) but I shall return even more powerful than before. you guys are amazing thank you again to everyone committed to making this a safe space for BIPOC people to express themselves.

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      I’m genuinely convinced this site will never allow that.

      Half my reports for racism are ignored and the white people on this site are not interested in listening to poc, they are the exact same as the radlibs who get their politics from posts and refuse to read any theory or educate themselves on racism while laughing at the libs who do the same for communism

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          I want it to be different but half the time it isn’t worth pushing back against the casual or overt racism here because its 90% white and whites just don’t fucking care about actually dismantling white supremacy

          The radical poc leave this site because it is a lot to deal with especially seeing the double standard there is for transphobia vs racism

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            This x100. I came here because I thought it would be a safe space for POC to talk about their experiences without the gaslighting and invalidation from whites, but just being here for a few months I could already tell that this site is predominantly white and is no better than Reddit for POC

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              My partner is Black and I’ve told them to not bother joining the site even though I know they’d provide a unique perspective. Its one thing to argue with out right racists who are open about their bigotry but another to see people making fun of white libs and conservatives for their racism and then do their own white leftist dogwhistles like I dont fucking know what they’re doing

              I was raised by white adopters so I can tolerate white bs better than most poc but still I regularly need to leave the site for a couple of months because its exhausting

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                  I’d also like to know, I want to be better. I don’t think I’ve seen any racism, and I’m a bit worried I might just be blind to it if several comrades are saying it’s an issue.

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                  Foaming at the mouth when poc mention cultural appropriation or any other form of racism that they, as a white person, don’t think “counts” or doesn’t matter. Also refusing to listen to poc about why things are racist even if they, a white person, dont think it is

                  Using mock ebonics to be “funny”

                  Acting as if poc are inherently more bigoted or more reactionary.

                  The constant bad faith interpretations of poc pointing out the double standards for whites vs poc

                  Responding to poc discussing how being marginalized doesn’t prevent white people from being racist by claiming theyre “putting ‘white’ in front of blatantly (insert bigotry here) statements to avoid criticism” when the statement is referring to specific behaviors belonging to white marginalized people. ex: white women tears in response to being called out for racism or poc not tolerating their microagressions, white trans people claiming that trans poc are actually being transphobic because they won’t let racist “jokes” slide just because theyre from a trans person, white disabled people refusing to acknowledge that disabled poc face more hurdles due to systemic racism in Healthcare and the history of segregation like in deaf schools (which led to Black people having to create their own forms of sign language), etc etc

                  Bringing up Candace Owens when poc say to listen to them about issues that effect their communities

                  Centering discussions of USAmerican vets around the white man’s ptsd from committing murder and raping poc overseas

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                and then do their own white leftist dogwhistles

                Right?! As if being a “leftist” means that they’re automatically an ally to oppressed peoples and are incapable of being racist

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                  And another thing they do that’s exactly like fucking libs and conservatives is have their token “left” poc who has internalized racism or a non Black poc who has external antiblackness that they use as a sheid when accused of racism

                  “The streamer i have a parasocial relationship with makes fun of people trying to dismantle white supremacy so my racism is okay actually”

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            I want it to be different but half the time it isn’t worth pushing back against the casual or overt racism here because its 90% white and whites just don’t fucking care about actually dismantling white supremacy

            Alright, I’m gonna get myself in trouble again, but I guess I’m gonna ask anyways.

            So like, literally what as a specific material political program, does that entail? What specifically, do you want me to do as an actual practical action?