I felt like my emotions were extremely intense compared to my peers and I acted impulsively during my late teens to early 20s. I was diagnosed with “unspecified personality disorder” with some BPD and OCPD traits.
Thank you for your response,
I am coming around something similar but in my case emotionally I don’t feel like I “want” treatment even though I probably need it
Was there a desire to blame this reaction to everyone else (parents, teachers, FP etc)? If so, how did you overcome it?
Can you remember the point where you realized that “this is not right”? Or was it gradual realization with no particular event?
I realized when I switched my major for the third time as I had no plans or goals while my friends were already done with uni and started working. I was also maturing and getting tired of letting emotions control me and setting me back.
I honestly wished I could find someone to blame my issues but I was extremely mad at myself for letting myself go and it devolved to self loathing. DBT is helping me by being more mindful and acting the opposite what those tell me and I find it helpful so far.