even so, i’m the only leftist among my uni classmates, they’re all either apoliticals at best, reactionaries/fash at worst. and i don’t know if there are any other leftists in my uni. so i’d have to pretty much have to try to find out which leftist students group would be better (there are many) for me to join and probably pretty much just walk up to their office to join them (is this how people join leftist groups irl? just walking up to their office? i thought usually others recommended them)

and then there’s the fact that if word gets around that i joined a leftist group, i’ll pretty much be harassed with “questions as to why i joined a commie party” and “requests to stop being a commie”, especially by my capitalist-minded parents who already got alarmed when they saw me only searching about commie parties. i already get those just for keeping long hair (im still closeted), its tiresome.