For me by accepting that I can leave at any moment I became willing to live. Its easy to convince someone to die for a cause. If a revolution happened in my old mental state I would’ve charged blindly to my death just to achieve death. This would’ve put my comrades in danger. Now though, because my life is firmly in my hands I have no reason to charge blindly to death, if I want it I can simply take it for myself and someone threatening it is something I must fight against because I want the choice of whether I live or die to be up to myself and no one else. We have more than enough idiotic martyrs who died for nothing. We need revolutionaries who actually plan to exist after the fact. Even if they fail in revolting they still live so they can actually pass on knowledge to the next generation of revolutionaries instead of dying and abandoning us like previous generations of martyrs before. Look at Christianity for instance. It was suppressed for an extremely long time with many dying for practicing it. The ones who died didn’t save the religion though, its the ones who chose to maintain their beliefs but sacrifice publically to the Roman gods who lived. They are the real keepers of the faith who passed on the religion to the next generation. Ofcourse I dispise Christianity but we socialists can learn from this lesson from history. Those who die can only be remembered if someone lives to carry on. We shouldn’t throw away our lives lightly in the revolution. Fighting like a cornered animal means fighting without regard for oneself, fighting without regard for oneself leads to death. Are revolution for corpses is equally a failure as none at all.

I’d argue that suicide is a permanent solution to a permanent problem. Depression doesn’t just go away. Its a permanent part of life. Only in accepting it can you live alongside it in a healthy manner in my experience. I’ll never not have depression, it can however be less emphasized. That is a far more achievable goal.

Assuming one is a revolutionary your point at the end is correct but few people are communists. Its an obscure ideology hated by the majority of the world. If you want to he remembered in a positive light then communism is definitely not the ideology for you. Communists are either forgotten, hated, or distorted by history into liberals. All of which are quite terrible fates.