You’ve made magnificent progress. You may still dissociate, but with how you already had some tools when your cat passed, you still sound like a brand new person. I’m proud of you.

RIP your sweet cat.

Once I heard the passing of an old friends mom who cared after me well. I didnt cry for weeks. One day, I sank into a scary depression so deep, I decided to retreat into my room to quietly process it. Instead I let out a loud, horrible, cathartic sob. I’m an insomniac, but that night I must’ve slept the most peacefully I had in years. When my cat died less than a week back, I instantly understood that’s what I needed to do. I got to it eventually. After all this, to me crying is one of the most important human functions. Even if I dissociate, I want to be awake with my emotions and live with them.

As sad as the cause is, I’m really glad it made you open to medical and mental health treatment. Incredibly brave to take on grief in this way.

Idk if you relate to this, but I think it makes me have no choice but to get braver and more confronting about my feelings of hurt. I can dissociate in order to escape feeling hurt, and now after losing my cat, dissociating can sometimes feel even more punishing than just feeling hurt. So I’m forced to feel my grief. I can still try to escape it but it’s a stupid decision each time.

I’m safe now. So im unpacking my grief. I heard unprocessed grief can literally cause physical illness, among emotional/mental/sexual issues. I’ve dissociated and compartmentalized too much now.

Anyway, it sounds like you’re already on the right track with choosing self love over anger though. I spent a lot of time being angry when I was younger and it gets you nowhere.

Thank you. I appreciate the validation.

They’ve been gone for years. I’m just starting to feel my grief about the hurt. I only just realized anger only makes me relive them being here so I’m trying to leave that in my past amd work on my grief.

Adult. A shitty roommate moved out.

TW: SI attempt(no method mentioned), SA I tried to attempt SI. Someone made ex roommate hide my method of choice in her room to keep it away from me. Less than an hour later, she came out and the first thing she said was “You’re almost X-years old, and you’re acting like THIS?”

She also heard me repeatedly sob about having been SA’d.

She later told us that she can hear everything we say when her door is closed. (After she moved out we found out even if you yell at the top of your lungs, you can’t hear the words from ex roomates old room unless you press your ear to the door.) She later said to my boyfriend in front of me “Mike Tyson is a removed and I like him.” Adding since he admitted to rping she was fine with the fact he’s aremoved*." She was always giving edgy offensive takes.

That was in response to us loudly talking for a month about how disgusting it is that she’s a big fan of a Nazi even while her romantic partner Jewish. After coming out to say she chose to stop listening to the Nazi(without any apologizing) she switched right to her love for Mike Tyson.

Months later a pigeon landed close to our windows and coo’d. When we later told her about it, her first response was gloating about Mike Tyson and how much she loves him for keeping pigeons.

What’s this supposed to be?

How is that a bomberman?

I personally see a metal helmet with an eyeslit to see out of, and a flying tassel on top of the head.

I get what you mean. For me it’s a fairly private soul searching and an aid in my spirituality. Understanding more about what an all loving world needs to exist. It helps me think about how people should be treated more kindly in certain ways. I’d always felt people are completely worthy in general, and now I think I’m also worthy in ways I hadn’t known. I’m more perceptive to self worth.

Mmm blueberry

What flavor is it?

I recently went to get a new state ID because mine old one had expired, and they gave me the option of choosing male/female/nonbinary. Is this thing you’re speaking of happening when you go back to change it?

I sadly didn’t say I’m nonbinary because of fear of mistreatment.

Damn that’s so smart to use intestine. I’m super surprised someone thought of that.

I know some “dating” apps have settings specifically for people friend-searching. Also if you say you say you’re interested in LGBTQI rights some apps will relentlessly try to match you with specifically other LGBTQI supporters.

Maybe you can say on a “dating” app that you’d like to meet people while bringing a friend you already have. You can be honest and say why. Most people can relate to not wanting to meet people alone. I relate to it.

What kind of chili do you think is in it?

I’ve never seen cacti sprouts before. They’re so cute!

Maybe that works as long as your good at explaining yourself at length.

Yeah I’m barely reading the comment without snoring. I bet its well written, but I could care less to learn about what a “progressive” is and I have no context to understand when people talk about them. Also, after I stopped being liberal it took me like 2 years to learn what a SocDem is. Both are a dumb mincing of words, and they’re both highly effective ways of confusing people who desperately need to learn to abandon liberalism altogether.

I know a little of the language. I would feel so nice and warm and comfortable in my own skin if I knew it fluently.