Waddup
Due to a busy schedule and lack of motivation I found myself doing two workouts at home this week. Because of this I felt like walking to work, which takes an hour total on a daily basis.
What did your week bring you?
Just going absolutely hogwild on a sitting elliptical. Thighs and calves feel like they’re made of only slightly lumpy steel now. Curls, triceps and shoulder workouts using a resistance band (from physical therapy). Stronger stronger stronger. Still feel like shit! But less like shit.
I also did some Tàijí yesterday, just following along a beginner video. Felt pretty good, smooths out some of my joint pain, helps with breathing, and “being as water” as it were feels very zen. Floating on nothing. Very cool stuff.
You’ll be carrying the proletariat with a squad in no time
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Thank you for making these posts as I have been failing pretty hard lately at them.
I finally got to work out again Sunday after almost a month now. Did squats and OHPs. Minor progress but really just trying to get back into it Idk if I will keep up with it but I had to try. I’m so stressed and just…everything fucking keeps going wrong. Looking for a new job. I got offered some 6 months contract that I wasn’t super excited about but would have at least been good pay and experience doing something else. 2 days before my last day at my current job my director tells me they can keep supporting me remote for now, also offered me a promotion. I ended up staying because of that and also because me leaving was really gonna fuck my team and also I have an amazing team. Like best group of ppl I’ve ever worked with… That next week I realized how miserable everyone else was on the team and realized I made a huge mistake. Now I haven’t gotten a single hit in weeks and I think I missed my chance to get out ahead of the tide. This is just the tip of the shitfest that’s been the past few weeks…
Spoilering the wall of text of me removed about my life.
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Additionally in the last few weeks some fucker in my area has been playing some heavy bass music and it’s JUST loud enough that I can hear it but only the very subtle vibrations. If I open my windows or go outside it’s drowned out by the ambient noises. But inside my house filters out everything except that bass. It’s destroyed my sleep.
THEN just to add a little bit of a fuck you to my life, the door on this mini fridge I have had for like a decade starts to not close right but I didn’t notice till almost the whole freezer compartment Iced up. I had a buddy over and went to grab a beer, you know, to enjoy Something for the first time in week. Decide to pick some ice out because the door wouldn’t even close all the way. Immediately I hit one of the coolant lines that runs through this freezer section. Killing my little fridge…
SO I order a new one. A nicer two compartment one. So I go to pick it up in family members truck. We strap it in the back well enough to keep it upright cause you’re not supposed to transport them laying down right? Well the wind was blowing so hard in the way home it topples the thing because we stopped it too close to the bottom. We finish the drive of about 10 minutes and I let it sit upright for 24 hours just to make sure any oil that got in the lines from the compressor had a chance to drain out… Well it didn’t work. Turned it one and within a day it’s making some fucked up squeaking and creaking noises from what’s most likely cold, congealed, compressor oil all up in the lines… So now I get to take that back…
AND THEN, a freak cold snap last night killed every plant I had in my garden that I planted a few weeks back in an attempt my myself feel good about something. I tried to save them. Put clear plastic bags over each on to act like little greenhouses. Didn’t matter. All gone.
And on top of that an investment I had made a while back which I had initially made some money off of went belly up and I lost a significant chunk of money this week. Whole investment gone. Not a life destroying amount but fuck me. I could have helped a good friend of mine just buy a new car with the amount I lost and at least it would have benefitted someone that needed it. Shit that’s part of what I had hoped to do with the profits I thought I was gonna make.
It’s like, just everyone keeps going wrong. And the harder I try to make a right… I just fuck it up more. Try to plant a garden, it fucking dies. Try to stay with and help my team, everything goes to shit. Try to fix my fridge, break it. Try to make a smart investment, stay in too long and loose it all. I just can’t get a fucking win. I just want one fucking win.
If anyone actually read all this… Thank you.
Life do be like that sometimes and that sucks ass. I’m sorry you have to go through all that. The only thing you can do is to keep going and try to move forward. Job hunting sucks but the best way to do it is while already having a job so you can take the pressure off.
Gardening is a hit or miss too. My mother in law has a veggie garden and it’s almost a full time job to keep it alive now. She started from scratch and through trial and error now managed to be able to eat out of it on a daily basis. Keep trying.
Not even starting on the fridge. Fridges are just dumb like that. Absolute units of things but break down by looking at them in a funny way.
Losing money sucks but as long as it’s not life destroying money, it’s okay. I invested in crypto long ago and it went bust as well. I was mad for a while but now I can laugh at the experience. I’d still rather have the money but it’s just gone. I took a risk and it went bad, that’s all.
Keep on going and feel free to rant 💪🏼
