I keep wondering why my life turned out to be so hopeless and miserable. Did I do something in a past life and this is my punishment? Is it bad karma? But then karma has never made sense to me. If you murder someone, and karma decides you then need to be murdered to pay for that, it requires someone else to commit murder so you get your karma. The cycle would never end.
Is the New Age idea that we choose our lives before birth true? Do we choose everything that will happen to us in advance so we can learn something from it? Or is that just cope?
Are we just evolved pondslime who mutated into humans by chance and none of this means anything?
Why is life so incredibly awful for so many people?
Life is completely meaningless in and of itself. Even if humanity unfucked itself, we have little chance of escaping this rock and we will all die at some point when our star starts to burn out or something else.
I think a lack of meaning is way more freeing. Could you imagine being born and having a purpose? I feel like it would be akin to servitude. Constantly feeling forced to fulfill some grand purpose that you had no choice in.
Instead you can find your own purpose with the very short amount of time you are given to experience sentience.